It may not be on your mind at all but you probably have OCD (that’s Obsessive Compulsive Disorder for you who live under a rock). I know it sounds like some rich people disease that is made up by psychologists for the sake of getting patients but trust me, it’s out there.
If you are a person that works too hard to get the job done, you find yourself correcting other peoples work, straightening money in your wallet, making your bed in a specific way and generally petty on arrangement of stuff, you are well on your way to OCD-ville. It starts as innocent perfectionism. Cleaning your keyboard at the slightest chance of dust, re-doing your work several times no matter how well you do it, arranging pens in a straight line or even folding your handkerchief in a certain specific way. Very innocent and simple but trust me, it matters a lot. Don’t get me wrong, being a perfectionist is no crime. It is actually a very good thing to be thorough in your work but once it starts affecting how you deal with other people, OCD starts smiling at you.
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is “an anxiety disorder characterized by intrusive thoughts that produce uneasiness, apprehension, fear or worry (obsessions), repetitive behaviors aimed at reducing the associated anxiety (compulsions), or a combination of such obsessions and compulsions,” describes Wiki. It’s an irrational fear of something that occupies ones thoughts to a point that makes it disturbing. The simplest of symptoms and most common is excessive cleanliness. One feels the need to create a safety shield around them in that every place they touch has to be either thoroughly cleaned or they have to sanitize everything and everyone around them. You fear that the little dust will make you get bronchitis or your life will be destroyed if you have a crocked calendar. They avoid touching people for handshakes and when they do, they rush to wash off the ‘germs’ acquired. Public toilets are a no-no! Anxiety attacks may happen in acute cases but this is rare. People generally withdraw from human interactions and may go psychotic at worst.
It’s an irrational fear of something that occupies ones thoughts to a point that makes it disturbing.
Like many other disorders, admitting that you have it is the first step to recovery. That obsessive thought about stuff not going your way or things not being in a straight line, get rid of it. Stop worrying too much and allow relationships with others to grow. Take a break from obsessing about stuff and give life a try. It’s healthy to be a little untidy.